ladyofthethorns's Blog

I wish I knew what is wrong with me.

I wish I Knew what is lost in me.

I wish I Knew reality.

I wish I Knew what keeps me awake.

I wish I Knew what make me shake.

I wish I Knew why I'm split in two.

 reading Other peoples mushy romanic facebook status updates about  being with their significant other

makes me so sad and mad and jelouse and I just cant read it. Do you really have to update about

EVERY date you go on? ugh whatever, doesn't change anything. My love is away at college. I am stuck here

listening to them talk and talk about their dates and love lives. makes my want to vomit.

These Lies Are Not My Own.

Have you no place to call home?

Shredded by tears, memories, and fears,

I dare not look upon your mirrors.

I am crazy
-No, scratch that,

I am insane.
~Has such a cleaner ring.

I am lost
-No, scratch that,

I am misplaced
~Has a finer taste.

 I am raw
-No, scratch that,

I am bare
~Has much more flare.

Its all for the show, you'd never know.

Drama sells, and passion's a drug.

Wipe off that smile, your so smug.

You sell your soul, with words you don't even know.

You speak of feelings, you've never felt.

We are all paid the cards we're dealt.

Cant you see the luck in the hand you've been dealt?

I am not entirely sure how to blog but I guess I'll give it a go.

....Okay I am totally lost. Do I blog about my day? It sucked. Not a lot going on. All the group project my teachers have me doing is driving me mad. I hate them. I'd rather let myself down than anyone else. I am stressed to no end, I feel like everything is crashing down, people i love kept asking where I am going, but I don't even KNOW.

My stomach has me on its hit list, and I don't know why.

and on top of everything I still don't have the software to hook my computer to my printer.

that means no uploading, and no printing.